Elder Holland's talk about mental illness, especially depression, was fabulous. Someone who actually knows what it is like instead of another "just smile" and you'll feel better. No, what I've learned through the years is that I' ll come out on the other side of the abyss.

I feel like asking where has Aunt Debra gone? Haven't heard from her and she hasn't posted anything so I'm just wondering. I've left messages but she hasn't returned any of my calls so I am just wondering, Where is Debra?

recovery

Sitting here this morning feeling woozy from the pain meds and working on indexing, I am so glad that is working again on my computer. It just needed a little attention from Lee and Voila! it works. Surgery was an interesting experience. The one thing that struck me over and over was the same questions were asked by everybody and my answers were always "No", and they would be so surprised at how healthy I am. Can't do much about preventing what the surgery was for except a few years ago I could have stopped doing anything at all and that would have driven me nuts. Got to be moving or you just freeze up and then what's the point of living? Everyone was so kind and helpful. Lee was right there with me until they took me back and put me out. Couldn't eat anything afterwords and was hooked up to a machine that kept beeping every time my oxygen dropped below 90 and my heart rate dropped below 50. I remember being really annoyed cause all I wanted to do was sleep. The next day when I realized that I had been able to do the four tasks necessary to be released I told them I wanted to go home even though I could have stayed till Saturday. Everyone was very nice but home just sounded better. So home I went on Thursday after many admonitions from the doctor and the nurses to take it easy and don't do anything. Lee has taken very good care of me.

Ummmm

I was wondering if this was still here and feeling guilty that I don't put more effort into it.  Yesterday was truly a seller day that I spent working in the dirt planting, weeding and thinning growing plants. Everything is so green.  There was a soft rain off and on all day that just intensified the colors. And I never once thought to pull out the camera a record any of it and I should especially the destruction and building up of the front yard.

Book of Mormon

I came to realize this morning that I don't need to worry about other peoples weaknesses. The Lord has them well in hand and I should focus solely on mine no matter how tempting it is to do otherwise. This is where I smile softening the admission of a weakness.;-)

Elder Boyd K Packer said: "True doctrine, understood, changes attitudes and behavior. The study of the doctrines of the gospel will improve behavior quicker than a study of behavior will improve behavior... That is why we stress so forcefully the study of the doctrines of the gospel."

The quickest way to stop an argument is to shut up!